What is Ayahuasca Pre-purge?
Ayahuasca is known to be a major event in one’s life, and just like any major thing coming your way, the process leading to it is of great importance and a ceremony in itself. Think of it this way: you just received the promotion you’ve been waiting for, and it requires you to move to another country. It’s due in 3 weeks, so the moment you accept it, there’s a great number of things that you need to deal with, starting that very moment. You get the point.
Now, when it comes to Ayahuasca, the moment we commit to meeting her, we commit to understanding what’s good for us, and hopefully, learn to apply it.
The very moment you clicked going, you are saying: “Universe, Mother Ayahuasca, show me!”
It doesn’t mean that you have to run to the bathroom all the time but rather that you start releasing a part of yourself that no longer serves you. You have been working on a healing intention and by doing that, you have told your Higher Self that now the time has come for some serious healing of ancient wounds and traumas. Your Higher Self wants nothing more than a deep connection with you so by having booked a retreat you have given your Higher Self the permission to start the deep transformative healing you so badly want and need.
The weeks leading to your arrival at the retreat will guide your mind toward questioning various aspects of your life. While Ayahuasca teaches the interconnectedness of it all, there will be certain themes that will surface more than others, depending on what you currently need to understand for your growth.
All of these veils are being lifted as an invitation for you to recognize, understand and choose again. Yes, that’s right, choose again, because before meeting Ayahuasca, you can already change your life. You are being invited to walk into the ceremony lighter, a bit more aligned with your needs, and more open to receiving.
This explains why people go through a pre-purge. It shows up as fear, anxiety, emotional turmoil, crying a lot, or it may even be the kickstart of a personal crisis. Our Unhealthy Ego is not pleased with change as it prefers to hang out in the comfort zone – a carefully constructed safety net designed to keep us safe and in check.
These are the major themes we’ve encountered as we advised our participants through their pre-purge phase.
1. The relationship you have with
- Your significant other: is going to play a major role in the pre-purge phase of your Ayahuasca journey, depending on the conditioning of the society you’re part of.
The dynamic of your current romantic relationship is going to become clear to you. Seeing the role you both play in it, will allow you to notice if there’s balance and how you really feel about it.
The absence of it will trigger themes like: insecurities, passed relationships, abandonment, and grief. Allow yourself to feel all that.
- Your parents: Do you feel free to be yourself, or are you still under the strings of your childhood self?
- Your friends: It will become clear to you who gives you energy, who leaves you depleted, and who you equally rise with.
2. Your body
Bodies communicate with us all the time, what they like and don’t when it comes to food, care products, workout, and rhythm. In the pre-purge phase, you’ll have the chance to define a language between you and your body. Use it.
3. Your home and belongings
How do feel about living there? You might notice you’re surrounded too much by your past, old energies. That goes for clothes, furniture, colors of the walls, or the place itself.
You might feel a need to spend more time on your own. You will be shown how much time you dedicate to yourself versus others. Where are your boundaries?
You will be facing synchronicities like never before. All because of your choice to expand your awareness and thus see them. They were always there, waiting to be seen. This is an invitation to believe in something out here that is unconditionally caring, for you and your well-being.
How can you navigate yourself through it?
You can choose to close your eyes, shrink your being, and lock your fists and jaw through the entire pre-purge period. But know this: everything you refuse to face in preparation will be faced during the ceremony. Realize that you are pre-purging when thoughts such as these pop up in your head. Especially when your retreat date approaches, the resistance can be very persistent and you might start looking for any excuse not to attend. Examples are: now is not the right time; did I choose the right healing center; should I really be spending so much money on this; my partner doesn’t want me to go, etc.
Here’s how you can make the best out of the pre-purge phase, so you can get to spend fun times with Ayahuasca.
Learn to breathe through everything you get to see and show up in this phase
Here’s a simple breathwork practice to have at hand.
It’s called 3 steps breathing and it requires you to breathe:
1 – into the belly
2 – followed by the chest
3 – and up into your upper body & shoulders.
Try it out.
Use your right hand to help your mind adjust to the movement. Touch your belly, and feel the expansion. Touch your ribs, feel the sideways movement, then bring your hand to your shoulder to feel the upwards movement.
Spend time in nature.
Be it the city or the countryside, find trees. They are masters of being rooted in the present moment and hold great power. There is no need to get out of your way of living to do this. You can find a new route to walk to work, take one bus less, and extend your grocery shopping with an extra block and slower steps.
Join a meditation class.
It can be online, presential, or both. If this is something you heard of, but never tried, know that the pre-purge phase is the perfect moment to do it. Ayahuasca will guide your fingers and eyes toward finding the right people for you to initiate this journey.
Become more conscious about your body movements: Dance. Stretch. Yoga.
You might think, “Oh no, I’m not that free and not elastic enough!”
If that’s the case, we’ll let you in a secret: movement is our nature because we are spinning atoms! So then, movement equals feeling good, and free, which makes it a form of expression beyond any other.
We recommend doing this on your own, at home or outdoors, where you feel safe. Let yourself express things you don’t understand and build intimacy with yourself through your body.
Quoting one of our participants: “It’s not until I journal, that I can understand and become capable of sharing what I truly feel. It’s like, I need to untangle it first, take it out of my mind on paper, and see it outside the mind to feel at ease.”
What she’s saying is that writing our thoughts shifts our awareness from the vastness of our mind to one string of thoughts. This way, it becomes easier to focus on one thing at a time without being distracted by various other thoughts running through our minds.
Create a vision board
You can craft one using a pin board and magazine cuts, or using software like Canva to build an electronic version of it. Whatever you choose, pour your desires out through pictures and messages that feel good. Go bold!
Have fun trying out these new practices
Doing something under the signature of “I have to” is unnecessary. Ayahuasca is all about allowance and compassion, so if you do choose to try out our suggestions, do it from a place of “serene curiosity” and playfulness.
Here are some suggestions. Take what feels good, and stay creative.
- Take yourself to inspiring places to try out breathing.
- Walk on streets you’ve never walked before when you hang out with trees.
- Get colors and stickers for your journaling.
- Throw a vision board party with your besties and build it together.
- Laugh at yourself when you’re all clumsy through dancing or yoga
We care deeply for you and wish your transformation to be as smooth as possible. Remember, cocoons can be confusing but always turn out to be magic.
Check out our next ceremony here. We’d love to have you on board!