Hi two birds family- I’m very stressed out. I have been laid off, my car lease is up next month and has damage, and my credit is plummeting due to large balance. I’m asking for help from anyone who’s gone through similar challenges.
right now I’m trying to focus on both the “immediately apply” type of jobs and the “get referred and wait forever til starting” type of jobs that usually pay more. I don’t know how to balance these two so if anyone has advice on focusing/juggling priorities please let me know
I have an interview tomorrow, good pay, hopeful but it’s in person and an hour out and I am a single dog parent. My boy can maybe handle 10 hours at home but will be crazy when I get home so I’m trying to figure this all out.
Someone I met has a friend looking for a sublet starting this week which is a tight timeline and I found a farm that does long term work exchanges through wwoof and allows dogs. Tomorrow I’m going to call them to see if I could come sooner cuz I haven’t heard back. So then save money that way, apply to remote jobs, and go from there. At least save on rent, parking/transit etc, and city distractions. On other option is to ask my friend if I can live with her parents in their basement which I did 10 years ago as an intern in college for two months- so that just feels embarrassing and damaging to the relationship almost but truly I don’t know how to figure all this out.
I was hoping I could break into film this time around but it’s challenging to balance- I have sent my resume out there to everyone I’ve met in film. Mostly hoping if this farm thing works out I get to write more and maybe figure out more editing or camera skills tbh just to give myself something positive amidst this mental storm. To be honest I have been so incredibly burnt out.
also- I’ve been cutting off friends and people who clearly want to use me. I hope all of you are releasing the old. I truly feel like the old world is burning and the new one is being born 🔥🔥🔥
thank you all for being dedicated to your own healing and that of others. I truly miss yall and wish I could get my weekly dose of hugs in hahaha
family - please let me know if you have any advice or send hugs hahaha I appreciate all of you.
AHO
-Clay
AHO
Hey Clay! Sending love! Transitions can be stressful. Care for yourself, celebrate what is going well, and expect the best to come. One cannot will clarity (or anything), one must allow it 🌧️☀️🔄
Also, a tarot reading may help you sort out the feelings and unconscious motives behind each option. Without getting caught on the details, what feels most aligned to your values?
Clay, it sounds like you're doing it! Artist struggle because it's worth it. It's hard, you lose people, things, beliefs and hopes but all of that is you distraction. Stay with it.
The farm is a good place for mental rest but will require physical work and time. If you can find the balance it'll be good but I'm the city is where you'll find the film people. Also, don't worry about 'breaking in" you're already in. Send us a link to your lasteat movie! You are a creator, you have the power, you are the force. Trust you have everything you need. You know this. Just film and write what you see while loving the dog, yourself, and raking manure and harvesting corn and herding goats. All of life is interesting and beautiful. Use your eyes and mind to show us the beauty and intrigue.
Breath deeply. Youre being tried right now. That's okay. You asked for this. You signed up for this. Don't give your power over to people in the film industry to make your success. You are making your success right now.
Don't take a job that will stress you and your dog out unless you can move closer.
Thank you for sharing all of this. This is an authentic share and I very much appreciate you for it. This is your family and we look forward to hugging you again.
Love brother!
We have some things in common, mai dude. Call soon..! 🤗
I can't help but feel identified with you in some things, but I want to remind you that although sometimes we feel that nothing goes well for us, the universe keeps us sustained with its infinite power, and everything will be fine... in fact, everything is already fine although sometimes we don't understand it.
A big hug and all my love for you
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