Every other time I tried, it was different. I did it for a big high at the end. This time I did it for me. I made it a point to tell absolutely no one of the snake I was wrestling. I hid being sober like I used to hide drinking. I held up for 21 days before people started asking me if I quit and not telling anyone became meaningless.

It’s day 26 now. The longest I’ve ever gone in 10 years. But this time. There is no ayahuasca at the end of it, nor was there any to kickstart it. In the past I had made it 17 days before and 25 after my summer ceremonies. This time, it feels different. There’s no come down this time, no afterglow either. I’m going to wake up tomorrow and have a simple and uneventful day.

I couldn’t have gotten sober alone without Two Birds, the Circle, and Ayahuasca.