On “The Way”

“Once you see the way broadly you will see it in everything” feels like an unfinished idea. “Once you see the way broadly you may never see it narrowly” feels to encompass my intentions. I see PARTS of it in everything but ALL of it in nothing. The fucked up part, “it” or “the way” changes constantly. I see the ever changing reality of my existence broadly over time, so that I may NEVER see change narrowly in the present. The calculus to accurately identify my change is blinded from me, (part of me thinks I did that intentionally, the other feels I am blinded forever to the future) but change broadly, it is mandated by my subconscious. The way that I have broadly seen, leads me to bend the knee to this narrow view of “divine intervention” that others would define my circumstances as. To bend the knee to my past intentions and to stand up for my present ones. The balance between the two. To fall on either side of the beam, you meets the same floor, I am not trying to reach the sky. However, I am trying to not reach the floor. The way is not down, but I cannot go up. I see “not down” incrementally in everything but I see up completely in nothing. My new intention is not to go up…. It’s to not go down. “The way” is not up. Way is “not down”. I may never see “not down” narrowly again.