I was thinking about the upcoming Journey. I was thinking about how my perspective has changed on talking about uncomfortable personal stuff. I was seeing it kind of like a house chore. I understand that it's necessary for me.
That brought me to think about the idea of cleaning your spirit.
One aspect of cleaning yourself is emptying out the things that don't serve.
After you empty yourself out, you can choose what to fill yourself with.
It's like cleaning your house. It's not fun in the transitional sense. But it's rewarding.
When your house has been dirty for so long, the dirt becomes normal and expected.
Once you clean part of it, you get to see how beautiful your house could be.
I get glimpses of it. But my 'ego' is persistent. Thank you for welcoming me to the community.
With gratitude.
Om Shanti my friends.
Here's one of my ayahuasca ceremony songs for the people who wanted it =)
Follow your heart
Set it free
I feel pulled apart
When answering to me
Tuesday I want peace
Later I’ll ride a high
Next week I’ll flee
In January, a part of me died
At high noon, I write
During the full moon, I cry
In the fall, I crave my roots
In Spring, I want to fly
Sometimes I feel stagnant
Stuck in the same regimen
Inside- the snake lies dormant
Waiting to shed its skin
Then the chaos happens
I come alive again
Mover, shaker and shape shifter
The butterfly emerges
A colorful wind drifter
Building an insurgence
Then, I guess I get tired
I don’t know
It’s hard to be wired
In the midst of falling snow
Quietly landing onto the blanket below
Maybe I’ll take a nap
Then watch a show
My body gets stiff
There’s dust in my mind
My soul is mid drift
When I hear the call of the grind
Suddenly I find myself back at it
Running everyday
Tracking macros like an addict
Let’s see how much I weigh
Building rituals and habits
A daily rhythm that keeps me sane
Then one random morning
I throw it all away
Grief is building in my chest
A lump rising in my throat
The wave is starting to crest
I need to get control of this boat
Or maybe I should lose control
Throw caution to the wind
Let the synchronicities unfold
Or break at the bend
I feel the thunder of the storm
Reverberating inside
My fingertips begin to warm
Lightening flashes in my eyes
A sudden break in clarity
I know just what to do
Even though I can barely breathe
A path forward comes into view
The trail is covered in fog
I can’t quite get my footing right
I step up on a fallen log
To expand my line of sight
Through the mist I see myself
Shining like a bright light
I’m all alone with no one else
Finding my way out of the night
The journey isn’t linear
It spirals through the years
What I thought was lost in chaos
Is just how I pioneer
Thank you to the Two Birds community. Thank you to the 7 men, Christina, and Ayahuasca, for joining me on my path to healing. A weekend of love, comfort, and forgiveness, has shown me there is another way to live life. Most of all, thank you to everybody who attends Sunday service, and those who provide support during difficult times. I would not be able to experience this level of trust, love, and happiness without you. I look forward to many more services where I will continue to work on myself and provide support to others who are also working through their trauma. I hope everyone has a beautiful week. Aho!
Hey Jay/Christina. Just wanted to put my name out there in case anyone bails out last minute for this weekend. I could fill in and pay cash. Namaste. 682-424-5236. I'm about an hour away. ❤️🔥
If you're looking to connect with others on the path and share authentically, come on out. No spiritual performances needed — just your honest self.
Cacao, group sharing, and meditation to close. Bring a water bottle, and a journal if you like to jot things down. 💛
A'ho 💛 Two Birds Church 🕊️🦅
For so so long, the world being unwinnable upset me. The best at anything is not me, nothing new to discover, no thought or idea original. No succulent I handle will be the best looking. Anything I do or create must fully be for the love of the game. And somehow that seems better than how I viewed my place in the world for so long. Idk some shit about the age of Aquarius or something I bet lol.
It's been such a long moment since I've attended Sun gathering or any other events. I voice blessings upon the Tribe and wish only light to those inside. Integration into the oneness I felt last ceremony has been amazing and time consuming. I am truly blessed to be the inside awareness of this external experience. Hope to reconnect soon.🙏❤️🔥
Our two-night ceremonies are where the deeper work happens. Friday night opens the door; Saturday night lets you walk through it. This format is ideal for first-time participants, and a powerful option for anyone ready to connect deeper with themselves.
Details: https://community.twobirdschurch.com/calendar/sacred-ceremony/?selected_date=2026-07-10
Okee dokee had to get this outta my system.