Just wanted to say hey to Two Birds community. I've been trying to open up my schedule for some Sunday church or Song and Cacao, and with I tension will eventually breed results. Theres so many fascinating crazy things happening in the world that try to seperate us from our divine spark. The choice to choose spirit over ego and flesh gets alil tougher with every new bit of nonsense. Hope everyone stays grounded and sees the love in the ascension process. Will it make sense at the end or is it just another experience?? Wishing you all the absolute best from divine to divine. ❤️🔥
hi friends- Greetings from chicago!
I am thinking of the two birds community and missing you all. I am so grateful for the sunday circle and miss having you all open your hearts and share.
I am recently facing heavy challenges in life and am honestly so tired of being sick and tired.
reflecting back on my ceremony in June 2023, I struggled to let go and it was very hard to fully surrender. Part of me thinks I didn’t fully release because my body was so tired and in fear (which makes sense due to recent trauma at the time). It was so hard to let go and it’s something I have always struggled with. I felt so much suffering that I needed to purge. It was like my root chakra / bottom of my toes that needed to come up and out. Jay and a friend held me and I was throwing up capitalism and greed and the world’s pain that I absorbed on a daily basis. When I couldn’t feel my hands my mind was scared and I would need to move them to feel safe- which happened during a DMT ceremony a year or two later. The aya journey was still incredible. I still gained tons of wisdom. I was also dealing with mild sleep apnea at the time which I have now overcome so Jay do remind me to breathe. If i did ceremony again I’d definitely need close monitoring.
I recently entered a relationship that made me grow a lot in a short period of time - which I’m ultimately grateful for - and due to different needs we split ways. I continue to struggle with letting go and healing neglect wounds. Even if it didn’t I still cling and ruminate and want to make something broken work.
I don’t know if another ceremony is right for me. I don’t know if psychadelics is the way right now. I have done plenty of shrooms in my day. And I don’t know if it’s the best way forward due to schizophrenia in the family and a recent bad trip tho I know how to correct course there. I do feel caught in a vicious cycle in my career and emotional realm. My friends have said they do see growth especially in the last year / 6 months. And perhaps things are just erupting and surfacing right now due to eclipse season and i hope this is the end of a cycle.
I’ve dealt with a toxic workplace I’m still stuck in (I have a case against them and am waiting to get them to can me so I can have leverage). New roles don’t excite me. Entrepreneurship does. I’ve started a clothing brand that is evolving into events and a lifestyle brand and has a strong niche and is building momentum but I can’t jump ship yet. It’s not stable enough. I have a consulting company with one client where I talk about lgbtqia+ belonging in the workplace and my clients love it. But I haven’t landed new clients.
I’m burnt out and spread thin with the current 9-5 but need to eat of course.
seeking wisdom/ mentorship on this
if you feel like you have recovered and found safe attachment-
how have you healed your neglect wounds?
how do you address self-abandonment in life, work, and love?
I have made progress for sure when it comes to boundaries, standards. I still have a long way to go.
I’m still navigating No.
I’m still navigating sense of abandonment in relationships (even if i’m in one). it’s hard
has anyone tried clinical ketamine therapy? part of me things that it wouldn’t take an entire aya ceremony- just a small push to help this all dissipate.
right now i’m struggling with letting go:
letting go of a career path that doesn’t serve me
having faith and finding mentors in entrepreneurship
ruminating thoughts when I am rejected or things don’t work out
letting go of a relationship that didn’t work and want even fulfilling but I wanted it to work so badly
letting go of heaviness in general
the feeling that I’ll never heal/ it’s a vicious cycle i’ll never get out of
i have a therapist now and I am also considering reiki, attachment specialist therapy, and reconnecting with my buddhist practice. I am also trying to fully lock in on entrepreneurship and reconnecting with a sense of purpose driven by values rather than focusing on money. so I am making progress in that direction
any wisdom to share? would love a chat.
if u read up until this point - thank you.
love always,
<3
Clay
Amethyst Kelly and I just got to Colorado for our elopement style wedding ceremony and we were welcomed with fanfare!! 🌈🌈
Two Birds Church -Songs of Ceremony - Hecate
My family took me out for a delicious meal after I arrived back home!
Come relax and chill with us. Optional Hapé offering, cacao, then a sound journey with bowls, drums, flutes and medicine songs.
Mats, blankets and pillows provided. Bring a water bottle and a journal if you like.
Limited to 9. Love donations. RSVP by August 27th.
https://community.twobirdschurch.com/calendar/sound-journey/?selected_date=2026-08-28
A'ho 💛 Two Birds Church 🕊️🦅
A song I wrote after my ceremony
A few shots from Sunday's ice bath. Missed some of you in the photos 🥶 — but thank you to everyone who got in. Same spot next time. 🧊
Hey all just thought I'd check in and see if any more energy has been put into a 3 night ceremony. I'd love to see a date in the calendar so I could request off work, book the date and set my future self up for spiritual success.😁